supposed to sleep so i rambled instead

I came home early to sleep earlier. but wanted to do essay. so now im up but im finished so sleep after this. this paragraph is for me —aka “you” is me. im talking to myself.

i remember when talking online was really really fun. now you talk like you text. which basically means ur an idiot. sometimes, i get scared that ive talked to myself so many times ive lost the art of talking to people like a normal human being would. i eat so many meals by myself in public — am i going to become an awkward, cant hold a conversation but would love to hear your story guy? possibly. how did i ever talk to multiple people at a time(online, of course). 

ive done this two or three times this week. i see a facebook post: it’s a Christian, spiritual cool holy quote/post. i want to point out at least 4 logical reasons why 1. the quote makes no sense, 2. quote may be anti-biblical so anti-Jesus, and therefore show why 3. means little to nothing without additional context… a lot of it.

and then, i write it out… and control+a, delete. why? because i’m kind of scared that i’ll get in trouble. i think going against the grain is a good thing when nobody else is. “it is the mark of an educated man to be able to entertain a thought without believing it” -that quote doesn’t quite fit the situation: being stuck in a certain mode of thinking is no fun. so i go against the grain, and the people going with it are the white to my black. teamwork. except, shunned?  

well its late, so ill stop my rambling here. should have slept an hour ago…