February 2012
1 post
EDWARD
i decided i will start my poetry series “reflections on a twisted mirror”
i also decided that it will not be public. <3 thanks for reminding me. i think im going to really like it.
January 2012
7 posts
goodbye
okay (for edward) this is really the final goodbye. PEACE OUT to tonguefingers —
im thinking about giving up writing poetry for good, except for special circumstances.
im thinking about how to “pick up the pieces/and carry on”
tumblring was really fun. reading your entries and stuff was really fun too. tumblr > fb anyday. good while it lasted.
when i first started...
passion
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vqDSemdyKG0&feature=related
the prayer that starts around 6 25: “yeah we’re going to sing it in just a moment but lets pray it over the nations. so just as loud as we’re singing, let’s just lift up a voice for the peoples of the earth. i think pretty much everyone in the house tonight has a nation on your heart. a peolpe in your...
to bun and eber
eber, i will respond, whether you were serious or not. i need to know what christian hedonism means before i disagree. i have an inkling of what i think it is - “God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in him” — is that close enough? I think that statement taken alone is horribly wrong. again, i’d have to find a much longer thing to understand piper’s...
feels like it's been a long time
probably don’t write here as much cause i am lazy and don’t care to.
i want to start a poetry section - reflections on a twisted mirror.
haven’t done an epic poetry section since “the smiles of yesterday have passed today by” so i am pretty excited. do i need to update any thing about my life? a lot of math, a lot of studying, a lot of stressing, a lot of holy...
it is upon us
i am bored a little out of my mind. so i decided to write and music. i have 7 songs on youtube open, and i will listen to all of them one by one, and either find more music or go to sleep.
i am a wreck and a failure. aren’t we all? was going to write poetry but hopeless i want to blah.
will i be pushed to survival? ever? blessed.
i saw the light
this song reminds me of passion and how i degraded the song.
i remember hearing this when the album first came out and immediately skipping it. the song “sounded” too weird. but after going through so many songs to remember the freedom of my soul, i thought i’d listen to it.
i love songs that have eternity + shore + home.
when death takes me down and i breathe here no more my...
ive been meaning to write this for a long time
but i find time hard to find when im playing so hard. instead of playing basketball, today i am at home, and now - i am watching crouching tiger hidden dragon. i bet you this movie has some deep confucius type stuff that i didn’t even begin to understand before, and will now hope to barely understand.
all i remember about this movie is about swords.
which reminds me, i remember the first...
December 2011
10 posts
finals
slept 12 hours before my 8 am final, got thoroughly roughed in the rough, thinking about taking a fat nap before my 7 pm final, and i want to study for next semester.
excited
the title says it all. i heard if you aren’t excited periodically there is something tilted within you. my source is myself. just kidding sorry don’t get mad i just wanted to say i’m happy i get excited periodically. excitement.
supposed to sleep so i rambled instead
I came home early to sleep earlier. but wanted to do essay. so now im up but im finished so sleep after this. this paragraph is for me —aka “you” is me. im talking to myself.
i remember when talking online was really really fun. now you talk like you text. which basically means ur an idiot. sometimes, i get scared that ive talked to myself so many times ive lost the art of...
dlchen:
Dear People Who Told Me Taking Out Tonsils Isn’t That Big a Deal, I talked to the tonsil doctor today. He rated the pain of getting tonsils removed an 8/10. Kidney stones? 9/10. Childbirth? 8 or 9/10.
Sincerely,
Passive-aggressive Daniel
well that’s not fair. ask a woman who just went through labor she’d probably put tonsils removed 5/10, kidney stones 8/10, childbirth...
because i haven't written in a while
i can say these past 5-6 months i have written the least poetry than i have in any other time period within the last 9ish years. sad. random thoughts. this is the order: 2 more dress shirts; 3 ties; 3 socks; tie clips; gray slacks; sunglasses (last because summer is days away). i want glasses for seeing —> oldman glasses !!! by the end of next semester? maybe. flattered!
mr haven...
potty mouth
sorry — from now on, i will refrain from using foul language. i don’t think many of you appreciate it.
so, away with the potty mouth - in with the clever (or i hope) insults/responses/words/descriptions.
cool story
i don’t remember the first time i heard it - but i think i’ve felt the same about that word for a long time. i may have used it a few times and feel like an idiot for doing so. “cool story, bro” —
maybe it’s because i am so used to hearing “boring” stories. most people think literature is “boring”. the old man and the sea… a guy...
i wish to be unreasonable
free to free. how much what will happen. are the walls crumbling? they eventuallly do. time to look into ethics
blogspot
my old blogs were way better. they said more, they were honest without being cynical. some of them are wise, and i just rebuked myself reading one of my old posts. it was about friends, and how it’s easy to let them slip through your fingers, but old self reminded me that every time that happened i regretted it, that if i just put in the extra effort, it might have been better. i stand...
November 2011
23 posts
for all you book lovers
hey guys and girls, i am looking to DISPERSE/TRADE/SELL some of my books. this is a really sad, almost painful process for me, so i will do 10 books at a time. here are the rules 1. first come, first serve. 2. one book per person - this means 10 people. i doubt even 10 will respond but still. if the book is graphic (sex/violence) i will let you know. 3. you get to choose how to pay for the book -...
tonight is break
tonight is break night. so let’s take a break together. was originally planning on writing a steamy post, but that’s work. let’s take a break.
what that means for me is first, a lot of anis mojgani and buddy. i have been so attracted by this poem for a long time. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bHX3qtJlmdU and now, i think it overtakes favorites (move over shake the dust, direct...
how i am feeling
i don’t know how it happened. but i got angry, super quickly. usually, i can find the roots quickly, and even describe what i’m feeling accurately. today, i can’t. but these are the thoughts going through my head. there is going to be some foul language. i hope this isn’t passive aggressive. i would be missing the point. if it’s not as blunt as possible, please let me...
a life saver
www.khanacademy.org :)
trying to figure what a girl thinks by listening to response is like interrogating a magic eight ball.
july 22, 2010 - gift response to alice
**this post was edited. it was quite longer. only the last line mattered.
you are awesome alice.
i knew how long it’d been since we first met when i began to notice the vitality in her face entering later and later in the day, leaving that pale ghostliness of age, as if she was, nearing the end, becoming hollow. And, each morning, kissing those lips i knew, realizing they had lost the firmness, that eagerness to reciprocate.
harold bloom keeps name dropping. some of the biggest names in literature. pretentious? certainly. reason to be? possibly.
prayers answered
some prayers are being answered. 1. pride. i’m being an aaaaaaaarr0000nnn and miriam 2. ashamed of gospel?
next one up, hopefully: return to first love, remember first love. resolutions: 1. pray for the body 2. pray for the lost 3. pray for acct. 4. pray for sistersacct. 5. live these prayers out. resolve - when i see that word, two things come to mind… ichigo from bleach, cause he...
when my mind is clearest when i fill Him up to brim over until only the stains, dark blue or green remain, like caves underwater; or, her touch so near, or here, warm or cold, but electric still and alive without memory when I think now is only a bite of forever - two blinks and tomorrow, yesterday and you are a memory. or tomorrow, tracing the stains, filling them with sounds and colors in my...
mr black janitor = hero.
random hello.
random ask.
random ask back. utmost kindness in his eyes. wow.
5/5/2011 u2 underground.
quickkk...
3 books you leave in your will… for who? 2 names you have in your will… 1 picture/moment in your life to be remembered by… 3 random questions i thought of that i wanted to answer. very self centered. but i can only answer for myself. the giving tree to who knows, flowers for algernon for whoever will take it, and mere christianity. heart is a lonely hunter was close call, but i...
tomorrow
checklist — laundry movie write hamlet or henry the 5 house cleaning
will these happen? time will tell.
“how are you doing?” - default question to ask and be asked, and so i’ve heard it a billion times and so i want to just let everyone know how i am, so if you read my tumblr, you won’t have to ask me.
im doing fine. sadly, some people expect that answer, or want...
listening to a lot of rap lately
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WcrwP8uV7s8&feature=related
I PROMISE MYSELF TO REMIND MYSELF THAT THIS WEEKEND I WILL HAVE A ONE HOUR POETRY WRITING ESCAPADE IN NATURE IF IT DOES NOT RAIN. PLEASE SOMEONE MAKE SURE I DO THIS.
if it rains, then, i will dream of the fireplace behind me and reading.
motivation has gone out the window. w4h00.
do not take this
don’t take this from me, but if it’s your will then teach my heart obedience.
oh whenever my heart is set on berkeley, why is it that something happens and i desire to go back home.
first it was friends and stuff, then it was janice and stuff, then more friends and stuff, and now it’s my brothers and sisters and stuff.
(summer summer… hmmm..)
today's conversations
i talked with CHARMINNN today. somewhere in the conversation, we mentioned how the world of writing essays is so different from the world of problem sets, equations, and math.
before that, june asked me which i liked more - econ or english. i answered, i like them differently.
anna and i somehow ended up talking about DFW. it felt like i was opening a door that i had kept shut for this past...
today and last night
i was freaking cold. i hate being cold. i hate it with passion. maybe getting sick again. all i want to do is listen to some beautiful music and forget about my midterm on tuesday, write some poetry, think about awesome things, captivating, redemption. man i am easily angered. i have come miles, and have miles to go. poetry.
i think i will just watch a movie. fight club or whatever.
honesty
there was the sea, deep, cold waters pushing up new life in currents beneath my feet alive with the hum, hum, song of whales and I upon crests wishing to be asleep.
to help people out —> at the beach, lying close to the shore, water touching feet, where did the water come from, there’s life out there and all i do is hide. i broke the unspoken rules of poetry by writing about my...
do you ever think girls cry too much?
doug hammer
favorite song: sunrise.
so far, i have listened to him playing three different versions. wow. i love this. he plays it differently each time. i downloaded/bought two, and one i youtube. SO FREAKING GOOD AH. wow. this is magic.
pocahontas and historicity/historiography.
came true
:)
WHOOPZ.
October 2011
15 posts
cheese
today = wow.
as soon as i realized i wanted to write that, the next thing that came into my head - “life is measured not by how many breaths you take but by how many moments take your breath away” — and then i had to end this tumblr post because i almost want to slap myself.
man, this will be a memorable night to remember. this was a joyous night to enjoy, and cherished may i...
clothes
a lot of people keep asking me why i dress differently. i have some reasons, and i shared with some people. but maybe i’m making them up as i go - justifying myself, rather than explaining myself. nonetheless, who cares why. but i have learned a lot. so here is what i learned, in long journal anti-blogging (quick and easy, but i never learn).
since last tuesday, which is when i started...
getting nothing done
studying for 100a = no motivation, hopefully i know the material well enough.
these lines kept coming into my head. they had promised to stay, to wait at least until november, right before the cold set uncomfortably a risk but for me, worth it, a smile and a kiss. that was seven years ago - that old face, the wrinkles, the little crooked gait and children’s smiles are only stories i...
radiant savior
my body is in kind of pain today. see most of us have never experienced that kind of rhythm because we have never seen that radiant of a savior. and it was always just ordinary wasn’t it? and normal? and he was my “homeboy”.
till you went up on the heights, and the angels weren’t singing “He is your home-boy… He is your home-boy.” No. They were singing,...
the name JESUS.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VE_6pxemXK0&feature=related
i think this is part four or five. PLEASE watch this. it’s really long, so only the last part i ask you to watch. if you don’t want to watch, here is a trnascription of the last 10 min or so — i added caps when i wanted to, ellipses when i couldnt type, etc.
you can throw in matt chandler and mark driscoll and all...
i think the best lines
today is supposed to be the last day of dressing up. i will probably continue to do so, but today is officially last day. :)
WHEN WE ARRIVE AT ETERNITY’S SHORE WHERE DEATH IS JUST A MEMORY AND TEARS ARE NO MORE WE’LL ENTER IN AS THE WEDDING BELLS RING YOU’RE BRIDE WILL COME TOGETHER AND WE’LL SING YOU’RE BEAUTIFUL.
lately, those lines have just been rocking me. love...
dreams
i dream a lot - we all do right (psychology of sleep people back me up?) - but i think i remember my dream, almost every morning. i usually number the major plot lines, and spend the day thinking them over. today was different - i woke up angry, and i just tried forgetting, but haunted i could not escape it. i don’t really link dreams but today’s dream reminded me of something.
plot:...
poetry thoughts driving to eber's
a lot of rambling, some of my old poetry. :) if you stick with it, there is an awesomely embarrassing poem at the end. shouldn’t even be called a poem.
1. probably the most exciting positive thing happening out of any kind of heart problem (metaphorical) is probably the poetry that arises from it. (not being 100 percent serious…)
2. this means, the peak of poetry writing needs to be...
poetry
dude, somebody asked for a paper edit (more like i volunteered) and i was so happy because it led me to a poem that i never read before that i really liked. reminded me of why i became an english major in the first place.
my appreciation for poetry is growing a lots. langston hughes “a dream deferred” — when something crazy happens, people write poetry. so, if you’re...